This Season of Struggle
Warrior Princess, fall is one of my favorite seasons. I love the colors of fall the red, brown, yellow and orange colors and the changes of the leaves. If you know me you know, these are the colors in my home. I love that it is football season. Go Hawks. It is also harvesting time, and I love seeing all the pumpkins, gourds and squash in the stores. I also like the different colors of all the mum and the smell of fall as well.
Even with all the things, I love about fall I tend to find myself always struggling during this time. I have been fighting within myself these last few months not sure why but it got to the point I am like Lord why I am I struggling so. He spoke to my spirit. Even with my love of fall, there has been a lot of traumatic things that have happened in my life during this season. 17 years ago I lost my mom she was my best friend and not having her here with me with all the different things I have done and experience has been hard. I've even walked through some traumatic stuff with my son during these season months in the past. Those times were some of the hardest times that left it hard to breathe.
I have had some amazing things happened during the fall season of my life, like going to Haiti, or finding and buying my home, but I still find myself always struggling. I've also had one of my closest and dearest friends confirm this recently. She called it out. You know what a real pain about this is, the enemy knows. I felt that even with all my writing about staying strong and being courageous and really praying up against him he hit me with a blow that I didn't see coming.
I believe this time around I had to walk through these last month for the Lord to reveal this about my self. Things are still overwhelming, but my spiritual eyes are opened to the enemy and my weakness at this time.
As I prepared for this weeks blog, the Holy Spirit led me to Ecclesiastes 3:9-15. Such a powerful passage of scripture that shows me that what does a worker gain from her struggles? That God has made everything appropriate in its time. We can know that everything God does will last forever, and I love the last verse whatever is, has already been, and whatever will be, already is. However, God seeks justice for the persecuted. I sure have felt persecuted or oppressed by the enemy in my struggles, but I know that God got my back and that He will not allow me to go through this struggle by myself.
I have learned that when we are transparent in our relationship with the Lord, (like He doesn't know). He will reveal all that is necessary to help us walk through whatever season we are in or whatever we may be walking through; I pray this has encouraged you to know "whatever is, has already been, and whatever will be, already is. However, God seeks justice for the persecuted. (His Warrior Princesses)